Friends don't keep

Dear friend of mine
runs his finger in my hair
and smells the shampoo scent
left in his car among the air

Friends don't kiss
and friends don't lie,
Friends don't visit
friends' dreams at night.

Dear friend, he is
puts his arms around my waist
pulls me close and tells a joke
and as i laugh he watches my face

Friends don't lie
and friends don't fall
in love with friends'
craziness at all.

My dear good friend
tells his dreams and goals
and quietly with a smile
includes me in all.

Friends don't fall
and friend's don't keep
secret wishes of friends'
to sleep.

Dear friend of mine
a friend but not at all
lies loyally next to me
and watch me watch him watch the stars.

Friends don't kiss
and friends don't keep
secret wishes of friends'
to sleep.

Dear friend of him am I
includes myself in his life
laugh to his jokes and I
keep wishes of him at night.

New Leaf

Forgive him God, he is sober now
Calculating the minutes of his being
In hard arrogance
And multiplied by sins
Please God, forgive him
For he is sober with redemption
His eyes are grey with guilt
His smile weakened from the apology yearned

He has fallen, God
He has lost
The back of his body crumbled
With heartaches he has caused
As he sobs silent tears at nights
He feels close to you and small
Learning verses of love
For you, God and for his all

Please God, forgive him
For his men couldn’t do the same
They turn their backs with angered voices
Leaving him so helpless and ashamed
Look at him differently please
He is humbly begging you now
He is a new leaf of a man
With continuously unspoken vows

The strokes near his mouth
The lines accompanying his eyes
They give away his sadness
The hollowness of his mistaken life

that crazy lil thing

Love is a funny thing.

It smacks you in the face.
It punches you in the stomach.
It makes you laugh out loud.
It makes you feel like f**k

It comes without warning.
It leaves without a clue.
It makes us crazy.
It makes us blue.

Love is poison.
Love is the answer.
Love gets deeper.
Love may be forever.

It makes you dizzy.
It races your blood.
It turns you on.
It makes you hard.

It catches your tongue.
It makes you sweat.
It leaves you breathless.
It makes you wet.

Love changes lives.
Love is all around.
Love makes stories.
Love is up and down.

Love is shit.
Love is crap.
Love creates psychos.
Love creates sap.

It is cruel.
It is kind.
It is loyal.
It is blind.

Love hurts.
Love kills.
Love heals.
Love will.

Love is a funny thing. Or are we?

Eyelash videoclip

With Bee, Has and Paen, helped by Chez, Kuyu, Billa and Kerol. Song credit to Juliet The Orange.

Fade

tickle your tummy,

if you cant laugh,

buy pretty flowers,

for the ones you love.

chop some onions,

if you cant cry,

smell red roses,

touch a butterfly.

live your days,

before you’re dead,

live the moments,

before they fade.

start a foodfight,

stay under sun,

scream loudly,

sing for someone.

coz you dont know,

when’s your last day,

dance your heart out,

say what you may.

so live your days,

before you’re dead,

and live the moments,

before they fade.

House #2

Good day mister, i saw you,
checking out the house no.2,
its been vacant for few months,
the couple have moved to Kuantan,
ma’am that’s a nice white blouse,
the same colour as the doors of that house,
they’re still strong as well as the windows,
just need a little repaint below.

I’ve always love that house built in 1924,
built for inspiration,that’s what it’s for,
the potraits on the walls, still hung,
yes, that’s the owner, when he as still a hunk,
the garden is perfect for flowers and vegetables,
oh, swimming pool? erm, that’s not impossible,
so, it’s agreed you’ll buy this beautiful ol’ one?
good, im your neighbour, can I date your son?

Just a poem

He laughs loudly at the jokes i make,
Sometimes real, and i know, sometimes fake,
Only he could read my mind,
and he gets it right every other time,
Ignores others straight into my eyes,
He’s a doofus too and unshy,
A good liar and or maybe a fool,
When im ugly he says beautiful,
Afraid of the dark maybe he could be,
Pretending brave to make me happy,
Never stop me when i’m crying,
Hold out tissue while he’s cursing,
Could see the shine in his eyes so clear,
Whisper words only us could hear,
"Baby you could have a thousand flaws,
but will always be the one I adore"

puppy love

puppy love dont last that long,
boy, my love for you has gone,
im sorry for the pain you will feel,
but thank you for your times with me,
you taught me a thing or two,
love can make even the wise ones fooled,

puppy love dont last that long,
boy, my love for you has gone,
i will remember all the times,
i will remember all the songs,
the first "i love you" and,
kisses that we knew were wrong.

puppy love dont last that long,
boy, my love for you has gone,
you’re the first i ever loved, boy
you gave me love, you gave me joy,
you have much more of that love,
that you better shower to the girl who deserves.

puppy love dont last that long,
boy, my love for you has gone,
a crush is a crush from the start,
thank you for lending me your heart,
i took care of it like a girlfriend should,
now im giving back to you for good.

call me, call me not

No, im not siting by mysef, next to the phone,

waiting for it to ring, been three hours long,

my stomach is not grumbling, and im not freaking hungry,

i did not miss my dinner, waiting for you to call me,

im not sure if you said you’d call, dont care, dont remember,

im not here praying for you to bloody dial my number,

maybe you left your phone on the seat in your car,

or you havent paid your bills, and now you’re barred,

fine, i called you ealier, that explains the misscall,

just wanna make sure you’re okay, that’s all,

i passed by the phone, nothing to do, so i tried to call you,

i had a full, busy day, wasnt thinking about you,

im not staring at the telephone, unringing vey happily,

im not sceaming in my head "call me, call me, call me!"

no, im not demanding for you to please freaking call,

oh, whatever, maybe i’ll be having my dinner after all.

if only i can turn back time,
and be better to everyone,
everyone i love,
and everyone who loves me.
i wish i cud be there,
be everywhere,
be there for everyone,
everyone who’s been there for me.
if only i cud turn back time,
and stop and think,
about everyone,
everyone who think of me.
i make mistakes,
im only human,
but reasons are excuses,
i need to be more,
i need to fix me.

Somehow

These eyes are red from watching TV non stop,
The head hurts from trying to sleep,
Everything is so loud but don’t hear a thing,
The only sound so clear is this heart breaking.

I really miss you.
I really miss you.
I really miss you somehow.

Too many questions knocking up this brain,
Crowding up the space with painful thoughts of you,
Everything looks important but none seems so now,
Need to be fixed but don’t know how.

I really miss you.
I really miss you.
I really need you somehow.

Maybe it’s time to get high,
Get away from this skin for awhile,
The hole the body fell into is too deep,
Trapped inside, can’t you hear the weeps?

I really miss you,
I really miss you,
I really need you now.

Time moves so slowly everything looks so fast,
Need to stop, need to get a life,
Half of this person, the soul on holiday,
This heart is so tired but the mind is still awake.

I really miss you,
I really miss you,
I still love you somehow.

I really miss you,
I really miss you,
I really still love you now.

we flew
we flew so high
higher and higher
in the clear blue sky
we were so happy
just looking at each other
i showed u my stunt
and u show me another
we were flying high
and not concentrating
of the big floating steel
not far in front coming
it came slowly
but it was sudden
bang bang boom
it was too late to turn
and we fell
my left wing torn
and your right one broken
the happy day is gone
we flew
we flew and we fell
the big steel won
because it broke the spell
the sparks now gone
the fireworks has stopped
we were ashamed
but were too proud
days go by
we miss one another
but not the fun
and not the spell either
but we miss the warmth
and the word forever
we miss the warmth
of each other's feather
so we started healing
and to heal one another
with the warmth
and gaining forever
we dont need spells
or two sets of wings
we have each other
we have everything
so i'll be your right wing
and u'll be my left
and create our own magic
with the love that we have

But

No amounts of new jeans can make me feel better.
Not enough enough DVDs can make me forget,
But I will try.

Its hard to avoid the songs you introduced,
Because they’ve become my favourites,
But I have to.

No poems cannot describe the nearest I feel,
No words can calm me down,
But they try.

No present can replace my past,
Not enough pain to make me numb,
What else can I do?

I hate everything to do with love,
And that means I have to hate you,
But can that be true?

Y.O.U.

You came to me
And made me fall
F.O.R.Y.O.U

I had faith in u
Because I
L.O.V.E.Y.O.U

But you left
And I
M.I.S.S.Y.O.U

I waited for you
Because I
N.E.E.D.Y.O.U

And I fight
Because I still
W.A.N.T.Y.O.U

But you pushed me
Away because you’re
A.F.O.O.L

So maybe one day
You’ll realize I’m
B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L

And you’ll come back
And I’ll say
F.U.C.K.Y.O.U

My heart is for my keeping

My heart is for my keeping

Now that the thrust has gone

It has been teased to their liking

It has its own special fond

My heart is for my keeping

My soul is my own

They have been giving

But somehow ended up alone

My heart is for my keeping

No man has the key

I locked it up with a code

That only me and my heart knows

My heart is for my keeping

It is until it decides not

I expected it to be forever

But it is earlier that I thought

My heart is my for keeping

It betrayed me with my consent

It threw itself into his body

The man I call my husband

My heart is for my keeping

Or so I righteously thought

Until it exchange places with another

His heart is for my keeping now