Lovesick Traveller

It's been 24 days. I still miss it. I catch myself several times a day daydreaming about it. I mentally knock my head with a hammer every time I see something that was cheaper there. And also the Cherry Coke incident at the airport. 3 bottles... 5.4 Euros I'll never see again. And why the freak did I buy the "&" block instead of "E"? Or ANY letter. Or more letters? I DID spent 3 hours there specifically. Everything sounds nicer there. Even a dodgy place like La Chapelle... Sigh...

And I should've taken more pictures. Why can't I be one of those people who takes pictures of EVERYTHING? Then I'd have more things to show. Now I understand why my oh-I'm-so-artistic-I-take-pictures-of-everything-but-myself photography-lover/photographer-wannabe friends crane their heads to the weirdest angle possible, lie on their back shamelessly, carry that huge bulky SLR on their neck religiously. I learned it the hard way. Now I'm stuck with all these pictures of me trying not to look as if I'm posing when I obviously were, in the most beautiful backdrops that should have been the subject, not props. Hmm, thank God for Photoshop CS5 Content-Aware magic trick. Just in time.

It's that feeling. The feeling being in a foreign place and everything to learn. Feeling too much. Seeing so much. The pastry smell. The highly-efficient public transportation. The manual doors. The historical beautiful solid building. The shops. The blue blue sky. The travel companion. The snobs going to/coming back from work. The stuck up dogs. Their more stuck up owners. Their piss. The dogs' piss. The shopping. The sexy guys. The sexier language. The language barrier. The cold. The unexpectant Originas. The walking all day and coming back still smelling nice. The record store. The artsy farty artistic artists art. The comforting instant noodles. The neighbour country. L'amour. "Orlando Bloom". Did I mention that I miss it?



something pretty (cliche) taken by a camera dummy

13 things in 13 years

1. Learn how to dance. properly (√)
2. Visit Paris (√), Greece, Japan and Cambodia
3. Read and understand the whole Holy Al-Quran
4. Work in London
5. Witness a Northern lights neon sky
6. Open a cafe gallery/shop
7. Buy a house
8. Get a Masters Degree or a second Degree
9. Wear hijjab
10. Have long hair and then cut it supershort
11. Become an activist or a volunteer
12. Meet John Mayer
13. Sell a painting

oh wowww

pergi ke kedai membeli angsa
rupamu wahai kekasihku sungguh mempesona
membeli angsa di kedai basikal
awak xtau ke awak ni hot sial!
kedai basikal di tepi lorong
bisikanmu membuatkan katak membisu ong ong ong

jiran di sebelah menyidai baju
boleh i tau nama you?
menyidai baju dan spender koyak
boleh saya tau no phone awak?
spender koyak digigit biawak
awak ni jual mahal la pulak

-Lil Ash

You were there in black, that bloody stick in one hand and a wave in another.
Image concious as always, but I got a smile altogether.
A moment caught, that moment captured

You were sitting there by the roadside. 10 metres apart.
And i don't care but I want to rhyme it with my heart.
And just like that, we're back to the start :)

Aku
Saya
Kite
Beta
Kawan
Eden
Chek
Orang
Beta
Kami
Hamba

dan banyak lagi...

Pokok segala masalah dengan bahasa ibunda tercinta.
Bahasa Jiwa Bangsa.

Maknanya, I ni bukan Melayu ke?

Zana Too

My fickle mindedness frustrates others.
Yours is just frustating.
My fair judgement keeps others.
Yours inspired me.
My string of excuses.
Learnt from you.
My stubbornness.
Taught by you.

Your sucky direction, your charity,
Your reserved nature, your apology,
Your homesickness, your privacy,
Your big heart, your TLC,
Your love of poetry,
All brought down to me.

Emlet

to rhyme or not to rhyme.
to rhyme. of course! all the time.

Much-Much

You are my rainbow,
My only rainbow,
You make me happy,
When the day rains,
You never know dear,
How you are my saint,
Please don’t take
My rainbow away.

since 1985

My Two Cent Friend

Your ego's too high and your manners too low,
What you think important isn't actually so,
Pity now money's more relevant to your life's hub,
That you really had the heart to give our 9 years up.

Just in case he's wondering

1. When he says he'll call, he'll call.
2. I'm happy all the time.
3. He switched to Celcom.
4. He always makes me laugh.
5. I can make him laugh.
6. We laugh at others.
7. He thinks I'm beautiful.
8. Even though I'm not.
9. His taste in music does not suck.
10. He stopped some bad habits.
11. We do stupid things together.
12. He thinks about our future.
13. He's smart but doesn't know it.
14. He's talented.
15. He bought a car.
16. He's always on my mind.
17. He loves art.
18. He likes to feed me.
19. He loves me.
20. He's in love with me from the first time he saw me.
21. He scolds me.
22. He listens to my advise.
23. He's nice to my friends.
24. He has the most beautiful smile.
25. He held my hand when I'm not well.
26. The way he smells.
27. His attention can only be broken when a little kid walks by. (no, he's not a pervert)
28. His eyes sparkle.
29. He's not perfect.
30. When he helps people, he does it sincerely.
31. He wants a small wedding, like me.
32. He's gentle. Unlike me.
33. He cracked his head for my birthday present.
34. The way he talks about his childhood.
35. He can cause accident when he's giddy.
36. This is real. It's not mushy. Well, maybe a bit :)
37. He doesn't bitch about his ex.
38. The way he looks eyes closed.
39. His handsome beard.
40. He rescues me all the time.
41. It's so easy.
42. He worries about me constantly.
43. He switches drink with me coz mine sucked.
44. He's soft spoken.
45. He keeps up with my blog.
46. His doesn't care about his handphone.
47. He's learning to be thoughtful.
48. He always gives me links to the websites that he thinks that I would like.
49. His girly eyelashes.
50. He's my husband.